Not a full on rant but still kind of bummed out. I really went for it and asked them out and got rejected. I already had a feeling the answer was going to be 'no' even though it was a casual outing. I'm proud of myself for trying but it still fucking sucks
5 year age gap is honestly nothing. A lot of people date or marry people with 15-20 years difference. Some see it as "taboo" but it's really not as uncommon as most people like to believe. As long as it's legal I say try to get to know him and just go for it!!!!!!
maybe try taking a few personal days and retreat to a state/national park or something? Even going on a daily walk can help. Try finding more activities/hobbies you would like to do. Since you like nature you could try photography, hiking, rock climbing, canoeing, etc. Hope things work out/get better for you!
Honestly I should just get a personalized doormat with my name on it at this point. What little "friends" I have left are continuously slapping me in the face or shutting me out. How in the hell can you make plans with me (and way in advance) then cancel the gd day of!?! I'm sick of being the one who always has to be understanding and forgiving. I'm so tired of taking this shit! And it's not like there's even any drama involved either. We're all "adults" with our own lives and work but there's just only so many "excuses" you can give at this point. I know how to prioritize my fucking time while still juggling and handling all of my personal shit so why can't they!? Like we don't even have to go out and spend any money. I literally just want to see them but I guess I'm not even worth that much of their time. I just feel so damn petty right now. Part of me wants to go off on all of them and tell them not to bother anymore..and then there's the other part where I still want to be the mature one in this stupid mess. Uuugh really jfc anymore.
So I made my crush cookies and got him a gift for his bday. I've been second guessing myself since this morning from nerves and almost talked myself out of giving him the gift. Thankfully I still went for it and omfg I'm so glad I did!! I still don't know if anything will come out of this in the long run but I'm just so happy right now!!!
Omg...if you do still brave it out and go...please get Real pics of knite. But only if you don't mind and are allowed/able to. I think I've only seen one photo that wasn't ps to some extent so I've been super curious. I know the crowds can be super claustrophobic but I still hope you have fun!
if you don't mind me asking how did that work out for you? I'm not sure if I could change that much but I feel like I need/could use a fresh start. -------------------------------------------------- * I'm attracted to both sexes. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks I'm straight. * I hide my emotions if I'm hurt or really upset. * I want to go to school (mostly for art, history, or some type of animal science) * I need more (positive/real) people in my life. All of my "friends" are more or less flakes.
Today has been an overall great day..but Please please pleeeeease stop fucking playing hot and cold with me and my emotions!!!!! Like wth did I do!? Why do you suddenly get so pissy, cold, or distant with me for no damn reason!? I'm trying so hard but it's becoming pathetic and pointless.
* no sun sunblock or zinc (unless I'm going out on the water/beach) * don't change my pillow case enough * constantly touching/rubbing my face/eye area. So I end up usually damaging my eye lashes. * need to use more of my face masks and take better care of my under eye area. *seriously need to get more sleep or have a set schedule (which I know will never happen)
Omg..haha that's more or less what I've been going through with my crush. At least all the jabs have been in good fun. I popped him in the chin the other night with a chair (it was a hilarious accident), playfully insulted/teased him, and stole his cell phone for a bit. Shockingly and thankfully enough I think he's still into me lol but like you I'm going to try to be nicer to him. Thanks again for the side support/encouragement about being brave with this!! I'm going to seriously give it my best! I really hope you can be with your crush as well!! I guess try baby steps and honestly just try for it. You might be pleasantly surprised good luck!!!!!!
haha yeah I'm getting better at dealing with it but at one point I got so embarrassed I literally ran out the back door and went across to the other side of our building to avoid everything and everyone . At the time it was so humiliating now it's just funny. still getting some mixed signals but I think taking it slow and enjoying 'this' is worth it too. It's kind of stupid but it makes me happy and puts a smile on my face. Hmm..well you could always just get to know him as a friend first? You might realize how much you do or don't like him in that way. And seeing someone as a friend first can seriously help ease the stress.