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  1. kirai added a post in a topic Brianna Slaughter / Morena In Japan   

    what I don't understand is why she insists on dressing in hoe clothes repeatedly after everyone has told her off for it. I guess it's just to continually fuel the hate train? I don't know, it doesn't look or seem comfortable to walk around with your nips and chest hanging out like that, she could literally wear a t-shirt or anything else decently comfortable and she would not have strangers balking at her. even by US and western standards what she's worn would get her stared at. It'd be considered borderline public indecency in many places.
    that stringy lace thing she wears would only be considered socially acceptable at a club, and even then it's climbing up the "thot" scale.
    baggier clothes would look better on her kid looking body anyway. she would be more comfortable not cramming herself into tight clothes. probably she's just trying to compensate for her terrible personality by dressing provocatively but damn is it not working.
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  2. kirai added a post in a topic Rant Thread   

    There's this crazed bitch on a forum I frequent who identifies as a "female pedo" and I'm tired of people justifying her. I cannot believe people think it is okay for her to spew the shit she spews. despite allegedly claiming she's attracted solely to "young shota boys", she's "dating" another female user who's also a downright psychopath.
    The girlfriend harassed me for saying that I didn't like the pedo's behavior, and we've been shit flinging for two months now. The pedo herself continually posted content about low key wanting to abuse children, even claiming she wanted to get away with sexual molestation at one point. I cannot. Trying to report it to the mods held no avail. The mods of that site are pathetic and useless in the long run.
    I recently got banned from a discord server wheresomeone was wacko enough to make this mental nutcase a mod, and the server meant a lot to me. The guy who banned me was not her, but I feel like she manipulated all the mods on the server with a sob story that I was the main instigator of the harassment all this time. No. I'm tired of the girlfriend coming at me and saying that she was the one who harsssed me. I like literally know they're both involved at this point in time. And when I tried to explain to one of her defenders, not a server mod, but one of her defensive ""friends"", they spat on me and told me that she hasn't talked about abusing children in months, which is simply goddamn untrue. I have seen it. I have seen it.
    I'll admit I said some pretty heinous nasty things about her, even going too far with some of my statements in terms of tactlessness. However. from a personal standpoint, I am a survivor of childhood abuse. Although it was not CSA, it has scarred me. seeing anyone talk about abusing children publicly like this brings me nothing but feelings of resentment and anger. It makes me fear. The situation was exacerbated longer than it should've been, and I should've just ignored them and their garbage. They kept trying to get me banned from the forum site and discord itself. That is what provoked me to keep getting angry. I admit myself that I dragged on the situation longer than I should have. I do not believe though for a second that either of these girls wanted "peace" with me. I don't think they want "peace" with me to this day.
    They'll bounce back and start mocking people who dislike them again once they "recover" from their latest victimization binge. 
    Other day, I unblocked the rude girlfriend on discord and had something poorly resembling the shambles of a "civilized" conversation. She claimed pedo girl had a mental breakdown and proceeded to say, despite not being a mod or even involved in that server before my banning (the pedo invited her to the server after I was banned, what a fuckin' shocker), that I "deserved" the ban, that it was "justice", and that I was "taking responsibility" for my actions. I did not cause this girls mental breakdown. She had numerous mental problems besides being a sick in the head pedo. Frankly, I'm not going to be blamed for it. Tired of her playing the victim.
    in these past months I've also self harmed and relapsed, tried to OD on mediations, been so drugged up that I damaged the rim of my car tire after whacking into a curb? Did I blame any of that solely on her? I didn't even blame it on her. Why? I know it's not her fucking fault. There are so many factors that can influence a mental breakdown. It's not just some person on the internet and you shitflinging that's the only factor. In some aspects I do feel bad for that. Clearly she's unstable. Of course, I'm unstable too. I really try not to let my personal affiliation get in the way. I will never be able to shoulder some of the shudder inducing things I've seen her post about children or her nonchalant nature about it. I have been at the hands of male and female abusers both. The latter should not be excused on account of the bulllshit stereotype that women are the "gentler" sex. If there is anything past online altercations have confiremd during my more dramatic years, it's that women are often ruthless with their words, and that holds up again here. I cannot simply fathom how anyone can overlook the pedophile aspect here at all even spiting the gender. It's something that due to my own personal experience I could never overlook. For even a person who has not experienced abuse I don't understand how this can be overlooked. This isn't some fictional character, this is a real person who expresses a desire to hurt kids. How the hell can you sit back and justify it or defend it? How can you befriend that? Pardon me, how the hell?
    This chick sincerely thinks that she's some sort of marginalized victim for openly being wicked and demented enough to proclaim herself as a "female pedo" and expects me to have sympathy? It's like, I'm sorry. I don't like you. I've never liked you. I wasn't even trying to provoke you when I criticized your behavior in a private server that you weren't even a part  of. When the initial incident happened. Before that, I wasn't looking for trouble. Some asshole sent her and the girlfriend screenshots and that launched them into their hatred of me. Apparently they've been stalking me as early as April, though. The first provocation was in late summer. And she was claiming that I was "sending others after her", because I would discuss what behaviors about her bothered me and swap screenshots with other people while we discussed what about her bothered us. Occasionally I'd post screenshots, and this later became a bit of an obsessive hobby when I realized how much more morally depraved she was getting. She could honestly have her own cow thread with how she behaves.
    I admit my receipt collecting increased after the incident, the incident made me angry and resentful, and the girlfriend especially just kept deflecting the blame off pedo gal. At the end of the day maybe it was exacerbated for too long but I do truly believe that it never should've been a thing in the first place when I made some minor critical comments about how it's wrong to be a pedo, and some jokes that were apparently taken out of context and sent to the gf, blah blah blah.
    They have become obsessive stalkers of me. If they tried to dox me in the future or something I wouldn't be surprised either. They're both crazed and have this strange obsession with quashing anyone who criticizes them if they can figure out their identity. 
    In all honesty, I think there's something even more nefarious afoot… on pedo girl… she was always pretty bad, but the girlfriend is an even worse influence on her behavior, I've noticed an uptake in offensive and generally rude and aggressive or passive aggressive behavior from her since she started "dating" this woman. If anything I could see the girlfriend as a more viable reason for the mental breakdown, she's equally or more toxic and encouraging her to do bad instead of trying to get help. The girlfriends interactions with me are absolutely vile, slimy, and manipulative, trying to make me feel as bad as possible for things from the start I said that weren't even offensive and calling me calloused names. She seems to have a superiority complex and thinks she's smarter than everyone else. Beyond just being a conniving twit, she has an air of pompousness and believed that I'm some shallow character she has all figured out. She doesn't. She will never be superior to anyone else. And the fact that these people think they can determine what happens to me anywhere on that sever or anywhere else, and that they can get "rid" of me easily because I oppose them is ridiculous. They're acting like antisocial psychopaths straight up. Part of me is crossing my fingers and praying they'll just leave the forum and severs altogether. They've apparently met up irl and shit, so maybe they should just go live together and leave the sites where they're spewing their venom. I'm tired of it.
     Overall I'm not saying I'm a victim in this situation but I am actually disgusted at how many people think it's okay to defend this open pedo because some of them claim she's "nice" (she's not, she's a two faced liar), and she's female. Same goes for the defense of the girlfriend. Bitch would've been exiled from the internet and crucified for being male. Because double standards though, she's able to get away with playing the victim to this day and actually manipulate people. This entire situation can eff off. I really am tired of venting about it, but I feel like this might be a safer place to vent it in. Maybe. I don't think they know I have this account.
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  3. kirai added a post in a topic Unpopular opinions   

    People who think it's okay to justify female pedos because they're female can get the fuck out.
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  4. kirai added a post in a topic invadernoodles   

    I really hope that chocolate didn't get in her coochie… one day noods is going to get a nasty infection from all the food she puts near and down there 
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  5. kirai added a post in a topic Brianna Slaughter / Morena In Japan   

    it's all part of her tumblr shtick
    i mean she seems pretty comfortably female to me lmao
     
    seeing as how i was only ever on seroquel (seroquil? spelling isn't my forte) temporarily, i can agree that it is not effective for much besides sleep. quite the contrary.
    i found it even more endangering than xanax or my current standby emergency tranquilizer (klonopin), it would dope me up so badly that it fucked with my sense of reality. i don't understand how someone could take it on the daily and function. it's a very risky drug that I wouldn't recommend to anyone, including under the PD/bipolar umbrella, there are effective, safer medications to treat mood disorders without adverse side effects.
    i wouldn't put it past her to self medicate if she doesn't want to go to a psychiatrist in order to get a proper prescription/diagnosis, medication takes time to sink in that's of a lesser strength, and she's an impatient type who would probably want immediate results... if she's truly "suffering" as much as she keeps claiming mentally, and doesn't want to expend money, time or effort towards fixing her mental health the proper way, medicating herself seems like the easier way out.
    the thing is if she is indeed doing that it only seems to be making her more messy.
    mixing recreational street drugs / alcohol with medications is also a huuuuge no no but i'm not going to put it past her to do that either with her lapses of judgment....
    then again, i wonder whether she's taking the pills at all given their typical side effects and how they contradict with her behavior. she could be taking another drug entirely under a false label, especially if its something she scooped off the street, it's easy for someone to outright lie about it.
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  6. kirai added a post in a topic Brianna Slaughter / Morena In Japan   

    yeah I an old group of weed loving friends who told me about their experiences with acid, and one of them described his trip as "visions of hell". they all adamantly refused to let me touch psychedelics because they knew my mental health issues would interact with them poorly.
    i really don't think it's a good idea for her to do drugs at all, except for taking her prescribed drugs (although I don't know why of all things they've put her on seroquil, that's a nasty pill). 
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  7. kirai added a post in a topic Alex Christine   

    after she was elmiminted I decided to look more into her
    her current instagram is here 
    after watching some of her instagram live videos she seems pretty nice, way more so than the initial "shes cringey from stan twitter and cant speak korean yet" reactions implied, and I really wish her the best, she wasn't ever going to win pd48 but I do want her to debut eventually, she's talented and she seems like she works hard, especially considering she's learning korean, but seems like she's gotten better
    she talks about her friendships on pd48 with the other trainees quite a bit, and ex YG Entertainment trainees park jinny & park seoyoung/roya show up in her stream comments
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  8. kirai added a post in a topic invadernoodles   

    I really wanna say it’s spliced bc snap auto splices their short videos inbetween like 7 second increments 
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  9. kirai added a post in a topic invadernoodles   

     how has her account not been yanked from instagram again when she keeps uploading borderline porn? i thought it got yanked before if my memory serves me right but she always manages to get it back or remake....
    i guess it's "acceptable" to showcase half your tits in a teeny bikini as long as you're not slipping an areola?
    i mean, if you're goin to be tasteless, at least show some subtlety to your perverted followers so theyll pay for your paid pornographic content, tease them. giving them excessive fap material on your free accounts is exactly why you're losing subscribers natasha.
    if you're going to transition from cosplay hoe to fullblown sex worker, at least follow what most sex workers do and don't sell yourself cheap or free. not that i want to enable her, but if she in fact lurks here that she really need to have it hammered into her head that she's not making intelligent business decisions. given that this is her only source of income she should be mindful that her downfall is supplying too much free content and not being able to properly promote herself and sell to her fanbase. even momokun/moo, much as i despise her, is better at selling herself to her neckbeard followers.
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  10. kirai added a post in a topic Instagram is making people crazy?   

    Interestingly enough I went to a panel at my school presented by some out of state high school students regarding social media and how it is impactful on the conventions of self perception and other phenomenons. While they said that social media started off as an innocous tool and is still used for good, people aren't necessarily aware of the harms it may pose psychologically. And everyone is pretty much guilty of using it, at least in the under 30 crowd (though I've seen plenty of people my parents age addicted to facebook). So these students delved into recent scientific research in order to build their projects, and primarily surveyed over 500 students in schools in and around their area for a survey asking various questions about how social media affected them personally.
    They spent a year doing research pertaining to SNS and their findings pinpointed a particular study in which it was shown that notifications on SNS trigger dopamine receptors in the brain, which induces a pleasureful feeling. Another study they examined found that there was a substantial difference in the ratio of gray to white matter in the brain of people who excessively used social media (gray matter being the matter in the brain that controls perception and sensory functions), with white matter increasing, and gray matter decreasing. Another study they talked about also cited a significantly shortened attention span, which allowed for a complex ability to multitask, but further difficulty in focusing on as singular task. There are apparently actual documented mental repercussions to excessive usage of SNS, which you could say is symptomatic of  overusing anything and allowing it to become addictive, so it's not strict to SNS but something that people consider to be less applicable to SNS and its usage....
    The second portion of the project, specifically presented by one out of the three students, specifically talked about the perception of body image and how it is often skewed by social media. Their surveys interestingly enough had a massive inconsistency between people who felt that celebrities influenced their bodily image (few), but many said that they felt that their body image was negatively affected by social media in general. The girl who was presenting, along with the audience, sort of discussed how they felt that it was less "celebrity" geared, and more geared towards "girls next door" who photoshop, and already skinny women on social media who accentuate their thinness (interestingly enough, Rocksy-chan, who I believe has a PULL thread, was featured in their presentation) and further photoshop themselves. And they're not big budget celebrities, they're instagram girls who either get surgery or photoshop themselves into oblivion.
    Another thing she noted was the fact that the reason there has been an uptake in young girls getting PS (lip fillers, ass implants, nosejobs, boobjobs, botox, other surgeries) when they're under 18s, no less has to do with the fact that we live in a fast paced society. People expect so much with either little effort or expect results of their work to come instantaneously. And the fact that rich parents tend to enable or toss money at the often privileged girls who end up getting PS young. This impatience that has been brought about due to binge culture, in other words. Binge culture / trend hopping has a lot to do with it. it really comes with negative repercussions.
    I mean, not to say that this conference wasn't what I expected, and that I wasn't horrified either. Why am I still on social media? I mean, it's just a part of daily life for me. I don't think it's driving me crazy, I'm already crazy, right? Is it making me crazier? It it making us all crazier? Maybe? It all feels so mindless lol. Anyway, I guess you could call this some "insight"?
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  11. kirai added a post in a topic Random Chat Thread   

    I feel like such a doughy potato. But I don’t want to pay for a gym membership and have no exercise motivation. Yikers.
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  12. kirai added a post in a topic Sarah Marie Karda/ Jude Karda   

    You know they say twentysomethings today are the teenagers of the previous generation. In other words, there's a substantial rise in immaturity and arrested development. The fact that she's so vain and conceited, focusing on and banking off her appearance for as long as she possibly can until her appeal runs dry, and I can promise you that there's tens of female models out there who look androgynous as she does, or even more so, and don't pull the "genderless fakeboi" card. Again, armchairing aside, the gender trending really seems like an attention grab on both a PR level for her "job" and a personal level to keep her senseless and equally childish fans thirsting for her.
    She's desperately trying to cling to relevancy anyway she can, because when it comes to modelling she knows that there are prettier, taller, and thinner girls than her (what is she, like 5'8"?) who'll undoubtedly surpass her. I think that's part of the fekboi shtick and why she keeps it up, she has to have some kind of tokenistic measure to keep her from coming to terms with the fact that she's not the skinniest or the prettiest, especially when it comes to modeling. You know what she is when she's not pretty or skinny? She's a smoldering heap with a garbage personality who's a bitch to her friends and her family. When you strip away the physical beauty, she's a hideous human being.
    Does she even have an education beyond high school level that would otherwise give her a job that wouldn't require flipping burgers? Is she even university or even community college educated whatsoever? What's she gonna do when the instahoe and fakeboi well runs dry?
    After estranging herself from her main family it's not like she can really return to them and expect them to accept her forgiveness after being a fucking cunt who tries to break them apart with her snowflake entitlement. It's sad to see someone whos literally so self absorbed and stranded. and who's going to fail at life and come crying wolf every chance she gets. As if she doesn't already live enough off her so called "friends" handouts. Cuz I know she can't milk this out forever. If anything it just makes me sad watching it unfold.
    Edit: damn Sarah fangirls y’all remind me that she really should be moved to little snowflakes lol
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  13. kirai added a post in a topic Acacia Brinley   

    woah girly
    2 kids is a bit much at her age, do her and her husband think they’re really going to be able to handle the responsibility of two children when the handout well dries up?
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  14. kirai added a post in a topic melbdun/60speach/brooke   

    changed her Instagram handle again

    jfc those lip fillers...
    looking like the Walmart version of Lana del Rey, aren’t we, Brookie?
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  15. kirai added a post in a topic Buzzfeed   

    Their quizzes are dumb but fun... and literally all I care about that comes from the site... everything else is nope 
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