There's this crazed bitch on a forum I frequent who identifies as a "female pedo" and I'm tired of people justifying her. I cannot believe people think it is okay for her to spew the shit she spews. despite allegedly claiming she's attracted solely to "young shota boys", she's "dating" another female user who's also a downright psychopath.
The girlfriend harassed me for saying that I didn't like the pedo's behavior, and we've been shit flinging for two months now. The pedo herself continually posted content about low key wanting to abuse children, even claiming she wanted to get away with sexual molestation at one point. I cannot. Trying to report it to the mods held no avail. The mods of that site are pathetic and useless in the long run.
I recently got banned from a discord server wheresomeone was wacko enough to make this mental nutcase a mod, and the server meant a lot to me. The guy who banned me was not her, but I feel like she manipulated all the mods on the server with a sob story that I was the main instigator of the harassment all this time. No. I'm tired of the girlfriend coming at me and saying that she was the one who harsssed me. I like literally know they're both involved at this point in time. And when I tried to explain to one of her defenders, not a server mod, but one of her defensive ""friends"", they spat on me and told me that she hasn't talked about abusing children in months, which is simply goddamn untrue. I have seen it. I have seen it.
I'll admit I said some pretty heinous nasty things about her, even going too far with some of my statements in terms of tactlessness. However. from a personal standpoint, I am a survivor of childhood abuse. Although it was not CSA, it has scarred me. seeing anyone talk about abusing children publicly like this brings me nothing but feelings of resentment and anger. It makes me fear. The situation was exacerbated longer than it should've been, and I should've just ignored them and their garbage. They kept trying to get me banned from the forum site and discord itself. That is what provoked me to keep getting angry. I admit myself that I dragged on the situation longer than I should have. I do not believe though for a second that either of these girls wanted "peace" with me. I don't think they want "peace" with me to this day.
They'll bounce back and start mocking people who dislike them again once they "recover" from their latest victimization binge.
Other day, I unblocked the rude girlfriend on discord and had something poorly resembling the shambles of a "civilized" conversation. She claimed pedo girl had a mental breakdown and proceeded to say, despite not being a mod or even involved in that server before my banning (the pedo invited her to the server after I was banned, what a fuckin' shocker), that I "deserved" the ban, that it was "justice", and that I was "taking responsibility" for my actions. I did not cause this girls mental breakdown. She had numerous mental problems besides being a sick in the head pedo. Frankly, I'm not going to be blamed for it. Tired of her playing the victim.
in these past months I've also self harmed and relapsed, tried to OD on mediations, been so drugged up that I damaged the rim of my car tire after whacking into a curb? Did I blame any of that solely on her? I didn't even blame it on her. Why? I know it's not her fucking fault. There are so many factors that can influence a mental breakdown. It's not just some person on the internet and you shitflinging that's the only factor. In some aspects I do feel bad for that. Clearly she's unstable. Of course, I'm unstable too. I really try not to let my personal affiliation get in the way. I will never be able to shoulder some of the shudder inducing things I've seen her post about children or her nonchalant nature about it. I have been at the hands of male and female abusers both. The latter should not be excused on account of the bulllshit stereotype that women are the "gentler" sex. If there is anything past online altercations have confiremd during my more dramatic years, it's that women are often ruthless with their words, and that holds up again here. I cannot simply fathom how anyone can overlook the pedophile aspect here at all even spiting the gender. It's something that due to my own personal experience I could never overlook. For even a person who has not experienced abuse I don't understand how this can be overlooked. This isn't some fictional character, this is a real person who expresses a desire to hurt kids. How the hell can you sit back and justify it or defend it? How can you befriend that? Pardon me, how the hell?
This chick sincerely thinks that she's some sort of marginalized victim for openly being wicked and demented enough to proclaim herself as a "female pedo" and expects me to have sympathy? It's like, I'm sorry. I don't like you. I've never liked you. I wasn't even trying to provoke you when I criticized your behavior in a private server that you weren't even a part of. When the initial incident happened. Before that, I wasn't looking for trouble. Some asshole sent her and the girlfriend screenshots and that launched them into their hatred of me. Apparently they've been stalking me as early as April, though. The first provocation was in late summer. And she was claiming that I was "sending others after her", because I would discuss what behaviors about her bothered me and swap screenshots with other people while we discussed what about her bothered us. Occasionally I'd post screenshots, and this later became a bit of an obsessive hobby when I realized how much more morally depraved she was getting. She could honestly have her own cow thread with how she behaves.
I admit my receipt collecting increased after the incident, the incident made me angry and resentful, and the girlfriend especially just kept deflecting the blame off pedo gal. At the end of the day maybe it was exacerbated for too long but I do truly believe that it never should've been a thing in the first place when I made some minor critical comments about how it's wrong to be a pedo, and some jokes that were apparently taken out of context and sent to the gf, blah blah blah.
They have become obsessive stalkers of me. If they tried to dox me in the future or something I wouldn't be surprised either. They're both crazed and have this strange obsession with quashing anyone who criticizes them if they can figure out their identity.
In all honesty, I think there's something even more nefarious afoot… on pedo girl… she was always pretty bad, but the girlfriend is an even worse influence on her behavior, I've noticed an uptake in offensive and generally rude and aggressive or passive aggressive behavior from her since she started "dating" this woman. If anything I could see the girlfriend as a more viable reason for the mental breakdown, she's equally or more toxic and encouraging her to do bad instead of trying to get help. The girlfriends interactions with me are absolutely vile, slimy, and manipulative, trying to make me feel as bad as possible for things from the start I said that weren't even offensive and calling me calloused names. She seems to have a superiority complex and thinks she's smarter than everyone else. Beyond just being a conniving twit, she has an air of pompousness and believed that I'm some shallow character she has all figured out. She doesn't. She will never be superior to anyone else. And the fact that these people think they can determine what happens to me anywhere on that sever or anywhere else, and that they can get "rid" of me easily because I oppose them is ridiculous. They're acting like antisocial psychopaths straight up. Part of me is crossing my fingers and praying they'll just leave the forum and severs altogether. They've apparently met up irl and shit, so maybe they should just go live together and leave the sites where they're spewing their venom. I'm tired of it.
Overall I'm not saying I'm a victim in this situation but I am actually disgusted at how many people think it's okay to defend this open pedo because some of them claim she's "nice" (she's not, she's a two faced liar), and she's female. Same goes for the defense of the girlfriend. Bitch would've been exiled from the internet and crucified for being male. Because double standards though, she's able to get away with playing the victim to this day and actually manipulate people. This entire situation can eff off. I really am tired of venting about it, but I feel like this might be a safer place to vent it in. Maybe. I don't think they know I have this account.