Hi all, I paid the server bill for the month so the site can be archived, sorry for the mess, didn't realize there'd be such an uproar. The site's in read-only mode. Happy archiving. Here's a link to a user-made PULL discord server: https://discord.gg/vZFEm75
I wish she would get some actual psychiatric help at this point. All of her issues stem from the fact that she is not happy with herself. She doesn't hate other girls, she feels threatened/scared/not enough. She doesn't want to have a ton of sex/have a boyfriend, she just wants to be desirable. She doesn't want to pay thousands of dollars for rent in this area, she fears people won't like her if she doesn't live centrally. Her brand isn't necessarily shitty. Self deprecating humor and tons of sexual remarks can be hilarious. But for her it's not genuine, and it serves a particular purpose which is to make her seem cool. Which doesn't work out for her right now. I wish she would take some of her qualities that are genuinely interesting and blow them up. She is obviously quite smart, she works crazy hard and she can explain things really well if she doesn't doubt herself. I can only hope she can take pointers from Elena Taber on how to be active on youtube yet have a regular partner plus friends. She makes great videos aimed at New York. She could be friends with Hitomi Mochizuki about self love, spirituality and sexuality. She has so many amazing people at her fingertips and I hope she can use it. She doesn't seem to be a bad person deep down.
To be honest I love the way she decorated her house, it's very my style and I would have also for sure placed my bed in the walk in closet since I love a sort of....cosy sleeping nook? It's also very on point with how people in my country used to sleep, really really really tiny bedrooms that just fit 1 bed to conserve heat. But there is simply no need to make so many sexual jokes (The key here is them being out of place) and to be so condescending towards activities that she herself participates in.
I'm really wondering what kind of person Ashley is going to turn out to be in the end. The more I think about it, the more I realize she is really really young and she has no idea what she is doing. She's not confident at all, but at the same time she is getting a bigger ego because she has such a big platform that she does deserve. She worked hard, made a lot of videos and she is getting recognized. But at the same time she doesn't seem to know how to handle it because she is indeed giving some type of snark about not getting invited to events. In general I don't think there is anything bad about Ashley really, especially compared to other influencers and people discussed on this website. She just needs to do some serious growing up and think about how she wants to grow. She even said in her newest video that she wants to be more than just the relatable girl who hates herself. She's just stuck in this weird area, where she is 21 and she is officially an adult. You are doing all of these adults things like finishing school forever, getting actual jobs, living on your own. Just in general being responsible for yourself but in your head you are still a young child. I mean I am turning 29 this year and I cried when I received a letter from the government for 400 something euro for no apparent reason...
Really liked her newest video! It's nice to see something focused on her natural hair and it's sweet to see her husband getting involved with the care of it as well. Especially as her her type is so different from Asian hair. I enjoy seeing their communication, it seems he feels more comfortable on camera now. He seems like a really good guy for her.
Wondering if she will visit Turkey. It's incredibly beautiful, has a lot of vintage stores (Istanbul at least) and it has a lot of history. However she has shown to not really be into her own heritage...sadly.
I'm not really 100% sure if he's uncomfortable, or if that's just his face. Since he's been revealed 9 months ago, she's made about 9 videos with him so 1 video per month which is not a lot of videos to get used to it. I don't think he's the type of person to really emote, since he usually has the same expression even when he seems happy. His family was a lot more open and cheerful, so I think it's just his style. Anyway he knew she was a Youtuber getting into the relationship, marrying her. I'm fairly sure she wouldn't film anything he wasn't okay with..but that doesn't mean he's going to be very charming on tape In a sense I think it's actually rather interesting she is with just a really normal guy.
One of my friends has been in Tokyo since 2-3 days and she has already posted so much Japan content that I am genuinely amazed at the lack of content from Kenna. It would be impressive if it wasn't so sad. It's almost the opposite of this girl who pretended like she went on a tropical holiday when she was actually home and everyone believed her. Where as Kenna is pretending she is not actually in Japan but somewhere in Europe.
So I was thinking, Maybe Kenna is trying to ride on the popular wave on Instagram now? It used to be that eccentric 'kawaii' girls were very big on the platform but now the whole European/Parisian thing is very popular where you are quite cold, fancy and really into architecture. She was already into plain beigy colors before..
This video was a little bit tough to watch but it was lovely. It's 'good' to see that they have broken up, and it seems like she is taking the high road so far by not really talking about the reasons why. I'm not sure if the break up was her idea because she seems upset but she has some good points about needing to spend time on yourself. Also whenever Ashley speaks about working hard, it never seems like a humble brag to me. I guess it really stems from her upbringing. Her parents are pretty successful in their fields, and strict. She probably feels like she always needs to hammer away at something. And it is really obvious she put a lot of effort into school and youtube. She needs to take some time to relax as well. I'm hopeful and looking forward to her next videos. It's also nice to see she is getting a lot of support in the comments now. It's hard to find a comment that is sad about the break up, a lot of people are supporting her with stories of their own heartbreak. It's also important to recognize a lot of her fans are younger, they only see the cute videos and they might not see some red flags that older people see..
Well this is her first relationship as an actual adultier adult...Now that she was in her final stretch of school, really looking to move out on her own without flatmates etc. It really changes the dynamic of a relationship as opposed to begin in the early stages of school, potentially living with parents and so on. Anyway I don't think they had a great time in NY, their other trip was also a bit of a disaster from what I can remember about the video. I'm guessing their differences were magnified and something happened. Well, we will see in the future. I guess IF anything did happen she is keeping it a bit more private to work through it herself first.
I will pray to God that they did break up and that she can move on to someone who truly loves her, appreciates her intelligence and her drive! Also I like her new video, the set up looked cute. The outfits were a bit more form fitting and truly looking like something wearable. The beige pleated skirt and the beige-y top? Amazing look on her.