Hi all, I paid the server bill for the month so the site can be archived, sorry for the mess, didn't realize there'd be such an uproar. The site's in read-only mode. Happy archiving. Here's a link to a user-made PULL discord server: https://discord.gg/vZFEm75
It's kind of a bummer that she showed all those friends on her last weekend in LA. Where were all these friends during her week without a phone and apparently the only thing she could find to occupy her then was David? The Ashley in this last vlog wasn't some cool big sister that I think she strives to act like, but I thought she still showed an interesting perspective of her life. I think it was kind of true what she said, that she can act her worst self when she's alone. Honestly hope she finds what she's looking for in London or NYC, but I can't help but feel that part of the reason that she's having a hard time is because she's never forced to stay. The vlog seemed to have a very abrupt ending but it was kind of nice because it gave it that "To be continued" feel.
I think part of it is that she realised too late that she freaked everyone out with her video where she kept repeating the same line over and over again. Now she has to come up with a relatable backstory to justify it. I think that's why she mentions wanting to post something that's " performed to perfection". If its a personal video, why are you worried about the performance as opposed to just the content? The logic doesn't add up.
She gets off on the attention. She has consistently included footage of herself wearing impractically short clothes and apologising/fake whining about "accidentally" flashing her underwear because of them. We know she loves to fuck with a mirror next to her because she couldn't stop herself from bragging about it. If you follow her Instagram, any time she mentions changing in her car she has to mention "making awkward eye contact with guys standing next to her car". She showed her viewers not just her bra and underwear drawer--but every single piece of lingerie one by one. Ashley is an exhibitionist pervert.
Seriously, it was a perfectly good and enjoyable video when you omit the weird details about her sex life. Like, it sort of feels like watching Ashley do a very slow transition into a more mature wardrobe. It was satisfying seeing her disorganised and messy clothes converge into neat rows of neutral coloured clothing. But oh man. Not only does she have to do a 2min detour on what kind of lingerie she owns, she has to make sure her audience know that she has sex once every 1.5 days, ladies!!! With multiple guys so she can wear a sexy bra multiple times in a week, ladies!!! Take a shot every time she pretends a remark wasn't obviously pointed at her male audience by saying, "Am I right, ladies???"
I think it would help. It's a lot easier to hang out with friends you already have as opposed to trying to make new friends. Ashley's big thing is that she doesn't know how to make lasting friendships with people her age. I mean she was in an exclusive film program at UCLA and she made zero friends. Usually programs with less than 20 people tend to be tight-knit communities.
I really hope she moves to NYC. She always talks about how much she loved NYC and during her vlogs she always says how she likes to find brownstone buildings to pose in front of. It might give her content a fresh boost, and we'll get to stop seeing her "sexy toddler" aesthetic as she's called it before because it'll be too cold to wear skirts as short as she does. Not to mention she's mentioned having actual friends on the East coast. It's getting too sad seeing her lock herself in her apartment all the time.
If her mom had found the channel a month or so ago then she might understand her job better and have more confidence in Ashley's choice. But the last five videos put together paint a sad picture that's hard to look at. Of course I'm judging by the video titles. No idea about the actual quality of the video. Imagine having your youngest child all the way across the country from you. You don't really know anything about them, especially since they pay for their own things now. Then you discover their YouTube channels. And the last videos for the last month are: her repeating the same sentence over and over for 4min while looking like she's going to cry, her hanging out with high schoolers, her congratulating herself for cleaning up after herself, her blabbing to 1mil people how insecure she feels, and her bragging to 1.5mil people about bj's.
The most I've seen of her recent videos is the teaser she just posted on her Instagram story where she jokes about justifying her job to her mom. Has she recently confirmed that her parents know her job now or was that the first time she mentioned it?
This video was like a better, fleshed-out version of the video she did with Refinery29 where she talks about her insecurities but in this one she's putting on the makeup rather than taking it off. It was pretty good, she addressed a lot of points people have criticized her for before. For example, the irony of her wanting to break free from the beauty standards sold by the industry while making her money from the same industry. I laughed when she stopped mid-sentence to think about that. There were some really relatable things that she talked about, like being afraid to show your bare face to a guy you're seeing, or feeling like you don't have your real face on whether or not you're wearing makeup. No idea if that last part was choreographed where she caught her gaze in her reflection and checked herself out reflexively (it really did look like a real reflex), but I thought that was just super real, and really punctuates the point she was trying to make that she wishes she could fight against the industry but has no answers on why she makes money out of it anyway. I think she could have stopped putting on makeup halfway through though. I wonder what she looks like in real life that she would put on three blushes and highlighter on the inside corners of her eyes, and think it looks good. It gives that literal shine and sparkle that she has on camera, but I can't imagine it looks good in real life. On whether or not she's pretty or average, I think Ashley is pretty. She looks average when completely bare-faced (nearly all people do), but with just foundation and eyebrow gel on, she is already pretty. It certainly helps that she's skinny and puts effort in the way she dresses. I do think the amount of blush and highlighter she uses detracts from that though. The glossy look can so easily look greasy in certain angles.
I wonder if her recent bestmess video had anything to do with her breakup. She mentioned how she felt how refreshing it was to meet her friends who knew her through real life rather than her online persona. And how they weren't the kind of people who liked to be filmed. It's a big contrast from her relationship with David where it felt like all their big dates and "philosophical" conversations needed a camera inbetween them. It kind of sucks to hear her say though that her friends think her job is absurd considering she's so successful at it even if the quality of her videos has gone down. How many 21y/o's have managed to become fully financially independent straight out of college? Even if the nature of her work seems absurd, you can't deny that she found success with it. Maybe that was the appeal of David when he told her on their first date that he thought YouTube careers were a joke? I wonder which of them felt the need to pull out a camera the most during their relationship. David seemed to bask in being filmed as much as Ashley.
I haven't watched the video yet so I don't know the overall quality of it but I think this way of addressing it is classy. They weren't together that long so I don't think it warrants an entire video where she talks about him. I think it would also be tacky and inappropriate considering how much she overshared whenever she referenced to him. But she did feature him prominently enough that it's really nice to be provided with a confirmation. Ashley can be really mature and self-aware. When she's frank and honest, her talks can be really refreshing. I'm hoping that when I watch the video later, that will be the side that she shows throughout. Breakups are tough. David was a tool and I hope they don't get back together but I still feel bad for Ashley. I think she should focus on making friends
Has anyone else seen this video she did with Refinery29 where she takes off her makeup and talks about how she feels about her appearance? Not sure if it's appropriate to post here since they use her full name and refer to her as a filmmaker before they call her a youtuber, but she does mention her YouTube career on it. She talked about not wanting to place her self worth in how she looked, but her literal net worth is based on how she looks since she's a fashion youtuber. She talked about getting overwhelmed with brands and taking the labels off of her products at home but so many of her instagram posts are sponsored. It's just ironic that she says in the video that she wants to be able to go to meetings and be taken seriously without having to worry about her makeup, but... her whole brand is in the way she looks. I feel like this should have been what her existential crisis video should have been about, but maybe she was too afraid of alienating her viewers.
Yikes. Is there anything between them except sex and their long drawn-out "philosophical" conversations? Honestly, even now David doesn't seem to find her attractive. Coupled with that existential crisis video where Ashley says that she's scared to stay with someone in case there's someone better out there, it doesn't seem like their relationship has a stable foundation. (I think that's what she was trying to say with her dumb playing cards analogy.) I feel like they learned to tolerate each other and now they've confused that with emotional intimacy. I wouldn't go so far as to say their relationship is toxic, but it's definitely not strong in any way. You know it's bad when other people start to wonder if you have any self-respect even when they're only shown what you've specially curated for them to see.
Ashley talks a lot about how she never dated in high school because she had no game and how she only got hot in college. I think she must have built up the idea of sex during high school to the point that she eventually associated her self worth to it. In the end, sex probably didn't live up to her high expectations so she always feels like she wants more of it and is practically obsessed with having it all the time. That, or she has a sex addiction. Seriously, how can someone act like they're horny ALL the time?