Hi all, I paid the server bill for the month so the site can be archived, sorry for the mess, didn't realize there'd be such an uproar. The site's in read-only mode. Happy archiving. Here's a link to a user-made PULL discord server: https://discord.gg/vZFEm75
Y'all were so right that maplesushi/Ariana was calling Kelly out. Maplesushi posted this a few hours ago: "when you're blocked over tampons." I checked and they're not following each other either. Kelly's so touchy, damn.
Looks likes she is staying in an airbnb first (as planned, then apartment). Also loling at the people in the comments wishing her luck when she's just going to a language school. It's not that big a deal people.
My friend is having her wedding this year and I'm so worried she's going to invite this asshole from my past. Basically, she and her fiancé kept it a secret from me that they're friends with this person and hang out without me, which makes it even weirder imo. What makes it worse is that she said she's only inviting people who she feels really close to, so if he's there it'll feel like even more of a betrayal. I honestly wanted to ask her in person before I left but now I'll have to wait until I'm back home in a few months...I understand that everyone can have their own friends but I have serious issues with this person and she knows that. It's hard for me to see what redeeming qualities he even has, they only relate to each other because they're "artists". He's a photographer so I can just imagine her inviting him so that he can take free photos for them, meanwhile I'm forced to pull a fake smile while dying on the inside since I'll be a bridesmaid. Lol
In middle school and high school I usually sat alone, and I felt like such a loser but also had the same mindset as you - I don't want to force myself to sit with people who aren't actually my friends, and I don't like insincere small talk. In college I still sit alone unless I see certain people from my classes. Cafeterias still give me anxiety so I don't look around much and just gravitate to the nearest empty table unless I see a friend. lol My first year of college I had people pitying me and coming up to talk to me, asking me why I was sitting alone, and that was worse. 😂
In Scotland, my dad and I were checking out of the hotel, and as we left the guy at the desk whispered, "He was massive." I thought it was funny since my dad is really tall, and although he was kinda overweight he wasn't huge. Lol In Japan, I was standing in a convenience store, locked eyes with an elderly Japanese man, and he immediately walked out of the store. And no, I didn't look crazy besides being a foreigner, and I wasn't doing anything rude. I felt kind of bad, like I did something wrong to this possibly xenophobic man, but it is funny now that I look back on it. Also in Japan, I was walking in a somewhat sketchy area of Shinjuku, and some guy stepped out of the shadows and asked if my brother wanted to "see some girls." Knowing how shy my brother is makes this funnier. Another random guy walked up to me and said I "looked hungry," which was an interesting tactic to try and lure me into his boss' restaurant (it failed). So nothing that wild happened to me on my few trips abroad besides everyday weird interactions with people. Lol
Apparently someone ratted her out to her mom, which is kinda too much in my opinion (unless she was posting really crazy stuff that was dangerous to her health but it's unlikely, idk since she privates her account a lot). Her mom probably found out she was drinking or something. (Edit: OR maybe her mom found out she was dating that guy before she told her, since according to her insta story her mom doubts that she has a bf lol).
guess it was probably about the guy she's dating (?).
In terms of grappling with my insecurities, I'm definitely in a better place than I was in my teenage years. For starters, I try to not be so hard on myself for not getting something perfect the first time.I've always been told that I have an odd or "unique" voice. Many girls tell me I sound kind of like a man and it throws them off. I think my (sometimes stubbornly shiny) forehead looks too big, and combined with my round face, I look like a beautiful egg or the moon emoji. 🌝 However, I'm afraid to get bangs to cover it because I like low-maintenance hair and I'm worried bangs will make me break out on my forehead, which is somewhat of a problem area for me. And I have a cow-lick so it's hard to style it, probably. Forever a five-head like Kiki. I also have what's called a Pigeon's chest, except not a severe form of it. My chest looks really ugly and unnatural to me because my sternum protrudes (it's obvious when I lie down) along with my ribs, and since my boobs are small, they don't hide the issue well. Kids in elementary school used to notice my chest and ask me wtf was wrong with it, so I've been insecure about it for awhile. Still hate wearing swimsuits and low-cut tops so I avoid those. When I got a physical and the doctor was checking me, I had to hold back tears when she kept prodding my chest and went "oh, you have a Pigeon's chest." I just hate it when someone notices and never want to get naked in front of anyone. So far, partners don't seem to care or notice and don't understand the issue when I explain my insecurity, so I guess it's not that bad. Lol