I am in love with someone and it scares the living hell out of me because now I can be hurt. Plus I'll probably fuck it up. Plus I don't deserve it. Plus they'll dump me because they'll hate me. Plus my negative attitude will ruin it. See what I did there? I have a beautiful person in my life who gives me so much joy and all I can think of is how to self-sabotage. I'm ashamed of myself. I spend more time wondering when they'll break things off than wondering about how to make things be good. My confession is that I have my priorities completely messed up and I damn well better get my shit together. I'm doing this as of tomorrow in hopes of changing this dynamic. But I have massive trust issues due to real world things and it's not easy.
I've developed a card game so that anyone can pretend to be Kenners. It's a solo game because...like Kendra even has real friends to play with. I call it Kenna's Kawaii Katastrophe! Rules: Use a standard deck of 52 cards, plus the two Jokers. Shuffle them well. Draw four cards. That will determine your day. (Don't worry about the card order. You're Kenners! You won't do shit anyway! It's all good.) If you draw an Ace, find a way to complain about aro-ace identity If you draw a King, fetishise Asians If you draw a Queen, post some pro-ana thinspo shit that makes it clear how smol you are and how everyone else is so fat. If you draw a Jack, silently anticipate 8 August 2018, Trust Fund Day. If you draw a Joker...you're fucked. You have to make actual YouTube content! Nooooooooooo! (But don't worry, you can be as lazy and condescending as you like!) Number cards: Hearts and Diamonds = go to Disneyland for the day. Spades = Anime bingefest! Clubs = Find new ways to use awful makeup styles, photo filters, and other bs to warp peoples' minds. Final rules: (1) No matter what cards you draw, spend hours each day replying to and/or blocking your haterz online! (2) All rules are optional because you're Kendra and every word you say is a lie. Just don't say it and it doesn't count (and god, Kenner Toys, if you thought before you wrote or spoke we would not be approaching Thread 4. Do you not see this?)
What. Is. Up. With. This? Nobody cares, Kenners. Make your own life happen. It's like every day. "OMG I can't use my iPhone properly but I just have to post about it on the internet instead of going to the Apple Store or using Google." or "OMG give me ideas for new YT videos that I will ignore and instead just post salty replies to PULL." And seriously IT'S THE 4TH OF JULY. Free things are everywhere in the US. I will be able to walk out my door and see amazing fireworks, go to free concerts, and get fucked up drunk if I want. And that's without even trying to use the internet! Tbh I think she's asking because her annual Disneyland pass has certain blackout dates and the 4th is one of them (that's pretty standard btw unless you have some insane super elite pass). Otherwise we all know where she and Bree would be, you see. ;-) And how is it that grown people have absolutely NO idea of what to do with themselves unless they're at Disneyland? Like, enjoy it and have fun but there actually are other things in life. I'm sick of this "I'm so helpless" act (and it's not just Kenna who plays that game on the YT scene). Take some responsibility. Small children are more resourceful. But, Kenna, I definitely recommend you ask Lonlon/Lonbon Edwards for advice since you guys would totes become BFFs and she's gonna be right by you. i promise it'll be a great new friendship!
Just a few quick wrap-ups from the Spring cour: Hinamatsuri was absolutely hilarious. Lots of fun. Hisone to Maso-tan...cute enough. Plus, best ED of the cour: (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YgKs3F2NB9w ) Mahou Shoujo Ore...cute enough and I did lmao at points. Mahou Shoujo Site. No. Just no. It was a mess. Unfortunate because there were possibilities. Wotaku ni Koi wa Muzukashii was a nice complement to Net-juu no Susume and stayed solid. Good romance. And can Darling in the FranXX just end already? Like...I literally just stare at the screen hoping for the end credits. I've liked about 3 total episodes of this show at most. I'm being generous about that. New cour, please be better. Please. I checked out the first episode of Island. It looks cute but probably predictable and maybe a harem (booooring)?...I don't know the VN or anything. Everything else is up in the air except for sequels and... (OMFG the NON NON BIYORI FILM I might like that series a bit. Pricing out Japan flights for the premiere, of course.) ;-P (joking...maybe)
America: where Lon can complain all day, not work, and still take a month-long vacation to go to a con. I am so angry right now. I have dear friends on disability. Unfortunately, they have things like self-respect and integrity. I actually think PULL should have a victimhood showdown, like those brackets you see where people vote for what anime character they like best or whatever. I seriously want to see how Lon does. (And apologies but I sooooo want a Kenners v. Lon victimhood fight. Please please let that happen in LA. I know I've mentioned it but that would be a dream. So. Much. Tea.)
Kendra...get help. Please. And god this victim shit is so fucking done. *** I'm the poorest rich girl you see And IG comments ruin every day and we Must fight against the hating masses Who turn against the trust fund classes Stop those who will fight pale pride But I'm a POC too and stride Proudly At Disney With my yearly passes Kissing Donald Duck's and Minnie's asses Never tell me what to be you see Because I have more subscribers than thee. kamineko est. 2018 // Therapy Is Nothing to Be Ashamed of, Kendra
(The following Mazzy Star shocked me because I only knew the band for their big radio hit, which was pure shit IMO. This is actually extremely good. Serves me right for making assumptions. It's quite haunting tbh.)
I absolutely hear you on this. But I will truly say that, upon occasion, I have had some messed up issues with formatting posts that just should not actually have been issues (not going into details but hey, I know how to code and format well enough to know when things just aren't right). Maybe it's just that Chrome is not interacting well with PULL code? But yes, 97% of the time I have zero issues and absolutely agree that endless edits like you mentioned are frustrating and unnecessary. TL;DR: sometimes there's a reason for multiple edits but usually there's not. Say what you need to say if you have something to say. Otherwise...why say anything?
I have a bit of an open message to the many long-term followers of these Kenna threads who are bored and want to peace out: I hear you. But please keep the faith! 8 August 2018 is Trust Fund Day (and yes I fully admit that it's insane to have her birthday in my memory). Tea will not be poured into fine china cups. It will not overflow slightly into the saucer. It will not spill a few drops onto Kendra's granny dress. It will be a deluge of tea that will reach Biblical proportions. You know you want to be there. House hunting? 3-month Japan trip (LOL)? Moving to Japan for "language school" and becoming a moderu? Wasting US$80k on random crap and still playing poor little victim Kendra who grew up in a rundown shack with no jacuzzi or swimming pool? Be patient. It. Will. Be. Epic.
One thing I love about Lon is that, no matter how deep of a hole she's already dug for herself, she always manages to jump right back in and keep shoveling more shit dirt. I don't think I've ever heard of her show compassion or care for anyone but herself. (And here's a little note, Lonnie: it does suck that many people have to rely on suicide hotlines or other less-than-ideal outlets. I agree. But those hotline volunteers do it because they are doing something you will never do. They are giving back. Nobody pays them. They aren't perfect. But guess what? They listen. They made a conscious choice to forego free time, family time, e-begging for trips to cons, and whining. You lecture everyone about everything but do fuck-all to make a difference). @Mikufan001 I highly support bingo sheets...but!
Look fam, we're not going to appreciate her CoLlEGe lEveL enGLiSH explanation anyway, right? We is 2 stoopid.
Lowkey wishing Kendra would try to solicit a sponsorship from In 'n' Out since she seems to post about eating there at least once a week. Just imagine: "Hi. I'm Mckenna Kaelin and I have 880,000 subscribers on YouTube. Please give me money and free food to promote you, since absolutely nobody in California knows about your restaurant chain. As a totally legit influencer I can guarantee you'd triple your veggie burger sales (but it might take a while because doing videos is sooooo hard). But send me money. Now."