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I found it really impressive how she didn't play the victim in the video. Like saying: this is why I started developing this or that, or gradualy became like this or that. She paints herself as a really strong person, I hope she doesn't suffer too much on her own and has people with whom she can talk about what bothers her.
oh, this was even this year, early spring (there is an instagram post with taylor on March 11th). So that's where she was already moved out. there was also this luggage photo with stole_apricot girl, and I always wondered if she was literarily moving.
sadly I only remember it being mentioned by Margo as she was trying to bash him, therefore not a 100% trustable statement. However I have a timeline theory that supports Venus's explanation, because I'm your naive piece of sh** who doesn't want to believe in negativity. Therefore OT and spoiler, please feel free to fill in the loop wholes and bring me on the right track.
her she victim /he abuser lie. Where she brings details of who was more motivated and so on. Personally I don't know how much of it was a lie, because I know he wanted to be a popular youtuber but didn't seem eager to invest any effort in it (just expected it to happen naturally from her fame). I always had the feeling that Venus was the one editing his videos and of course translating them, so she was working for both their online fame. It sort of proves that he's not your hard working type (doesn't prove however if he did quit his job) extra note: she also adressed the Mikan question. She still considers Mikan as her friend and understands if she's very busy and wants to make other new friends as well. To me it felt a bit scripted and self-pitying, and I hope Mikan doesn't spit her tea listening to it.
she discussed a bit about manaki in the live. She mentioned she felt that they didn't have the same ambition level in the relationshop and that their interests and motivation drifted apart, or they wouldn't be spending their free time doing things they both liked (this I could understand if you marry so early before knowing the other person more than 15%). She then mentioned again that he didn't enjoy being hard working, and that she was at the beginning better financially placed as him (which bothered Margo). She also has a hard time going back to his home where she still has all her stuff, because of the pressured feelings. personal comment: I think she is now too deep with this lie and tries to build the rest upon it. Like even if she would regret it, she can't admit that she shouldn't have said that. She even mentioned that she shouldn't have deleted the other video as she didn't find it that wrong.
she really is recruiting, and from her caption I understand that you don't have to be hired locally? I'm disappointed if it's really a MLM and everyone is an online employee. Off course being a local employee there, means she has to deal with managing you, and imagine if you have people with strong personalities who won't just sit there and take her sh**. She would be in a constant drama which is a strain on her mental health. (for me negativity and people who like to contradict all the time are mentally exhausting). I want to see her doing that in the long run, but hey, if she pulls it through, she has a +1 from me.
does divorce happen that fast? I know regular couples with no drama, who need more than half a year to legally complete a divorce. If this is similar in Japan, Mana would have started early spring (and at that time he was still giving her phone calls at night in Karaoke club). I'm bad at managing time, does the timeline fit? other than that, it's sad thet they grew tired /annoyed of each other, yet couldn't keep this professional and decent. You can talk about your divorce without making the other person the bad guy. Makes you look more professional and mature, Venus.
unpopular opinion: I personally think, having a disorder can completely shut down your motivation and will. For example if you enjoy eating a lot, you know it's wrong to exagerate but you don't have the will to stop it. Being aware of something and not having the will to do anything against it can still happen simultaneously to some people. I feel like she's in this state right now, she reads this forum and agrees to it to a certain extent (hence her rewriting the exact message from a previous post from here), yet she is not motivated enough to get up and do something. @opinions of getting off from the internet and healing offline: if she is an introvert, the offline world may not be such a help for her and she would isolate a lot. (OT example personal note: whenever I go talk to someone, I lose patience of socializing after 10 minutes and I want to substract myself from the room ). Interacting online means you offer the internet exactly so much time you are confortable sharing, and then disconnecting when you feel that you yourself got enough time socializing, without giving off the feeling to others that you need a break. (I feel like I didn't put the last part in words very well ._.)
the only thing that I don't find so bad about the above screenshot, is that she doesn't look so angry anymore as in her older photos. She used to look like she hated everyone and was envious of everyone. =/
I had to write this quote from her sudden live streem at minute 20:02. After some person asks why she is vulgar, she mentioned to everyone that she's an adult, 22, and: (quote) "I can drink alcohol, I can smoke cigarretes, I can deprive myself of sleep, say fuck whenever I want to, and you know... the suffering.. the suffering it causes me is all my responsibility." *applies lipstic afterwards* I don't know guys. If she is so aware of what she is doing, does this mean she is just giving up on herself, and just going with the flow, waiting for life to just happen by itself? =/
it kinda felt that way. He looked somewhat disappointed in her opinions of Japan: maid cafe, underwear in vending machines, and ramen. No mention of Tanabata or Hinamatsuri, or temples, or rural vs urban scenery etc She did mention traditional though. If she finds information to share about the tea ceremony, I will inhale the video.
temporarily switching lurker mode off. I wonder why she mentioned that she's no longer on anti-depressals, as everything is going much better now, and then post again about loneliness and wanting to vent out the truth. If she's in a state where she can't share with someone about "things that would get her in trouble", she should at least continue full power with the treatment and medicine to compensate. =/ It's such a horrible feeling to feel like you don't have a trustable environment and you have to handle life by yourself, when you're not ready to be stable. =/