Hi all, I paid the server bill for the month so the site can be archived, sorry for the mess, didn't realize there'd be such an uproar. The site's in read-only mode. Happy archiving. Here's a link to a user-made PULL discord server: https://discord.gg/vZFEm75
I feel that a lot of mysteries and he-said-she-said might be a bit cleared up if Ross spoke up, however I also fully understand him not wanting to touch the entire thing even with a stick. He was in a really rough place during the divorce and with the possible abuse he suffered during the marriage might cause him a lot of mental harm if he threw himself head first into any drama involving Holly.
It is awful that Heidi has to deal with all of this on her own, but I think it is better for Ross to stay away from the drama if we don't want him turning to alcohol again.
Best part is that Heidi has only mentioned Holly a couple of handful of times, I can only think of once when Heidi didn't bring up Holly by name without it being in a response to either Holly or one of her followers attacking Heidi. People keep telling Heidi, that mostly keeps to herself and doing her own thing, to move on when it's Holly and Jared bringing up the drama the moment people stop caring about them for a hot minute. They literally have nothing else that keeps them relevant anymore (unless the new tabletop show Holly is in takes off, which I doubt since she went nuclear in the comment section when people commented on her seeming distracted in it)
She needs to apologize directly to Heidi and to the BPD community (in lack of better words). I'm not a fan of her but it really hurt when she claimed Heidi was unfixable due to Holly's lie about her having it, such a good mental health advocate to continue to spread misinformation about a mental illness that is already struggling with misconceptions about it.
But nah she's such a huge narc that it is easier to freak out at people calling her out and block them (despite asking people to tell her what she did wrong...you can't ask for something and then get mad when you get it Holly. It doesn't work like that.). She is following the narcissists prayer like it's her religion.
Still no word from Shane, but don't worry everyone, he is still alive. We know this because he changed his twitter profile pic to a personified version of uwu Putting my bets on homeboy prepping some sort of apology video or something of the like, if not he is obviously waiting for everything to blow over and is just changing to a new selfie out of boredom.
Follow-up on this, just to get it out of my system lol
First of all he was way more attractive irl so I had a pure Squidward "OH NO HE'S HOT" in my head when I saw him. So I've been trying to figure out what his body language during the date meant. Like, I'm usually sort of ok at reading body language but this ??? He seemed pretty nervous, just like me, in that we were both talking a lot, stumbling on our words (sometimes our own but mostly each others) and laughing all the time. He seemed a bit fidgety though, like he would lean forward, then he would lean back, then sort of throw his arm up on the backrest of the chair, then pick a little bit on his hair, then lean forward again, etc. He was smiling the entire time and he didn't really look away either so there was a certain amount of eye contact. But since it was the first time I met him I dunno if it's his way of being polite or if he has ADHD and can't sit still for long amount of times without moving around (like my older sister). The dinner was pretty short because he needed to leave his extra key's at his friend's place because he was driving north to see his family for two weeks the morning after, but he paid for everything and we hugged before we separated. He texted me as soon as he got home with a "thanks for a great dinner, even if it was short (well, two hours felt like thirty minutes)", we have texted a couple of more times since but he seems busy with hanging out with his family so I'm going to leave him be for now. But I'm all... ARE YOU INTERESTED OR NOT I DON'T KNOW
Started seeing this guy a couple of weeks ago, it started with us matching on tinder and REALLY hitting it off and been texting constantly since. With him being an alt guy and a musician heavily into the same kind of video games and music as me I felt that we HAVE to have some friends or acquaintances in common, so decided to look him up on FB and other places using the hints he had given me and what I had to work with from his profile simply to find out that this guy apparently has a quite a following and is a guitarist for a famous singer here.
We are going to meet up tonight so it's going to be my chance to confirm if he is a catfish or not, but... bruh. You probably have hotter chicks hitting you up so why a plain jane like me
Edited together the anon's confession and the q&a that followed, decided to cut out the posts that are questioning the legitimacy of it and/or calling out anon for attempting to take the moral high ground while trading nudes with PJ. Still no proof however and I doubt there will be any.
Honestly wouldn't surprise me if Holly already knows and is the reason why she has been acting even more insecure than usual, she is a desperate pickme that doesn't want to admit that she threw her career away for a dickhead that can't even spell the word honest.
The more I think about the book section the more sure I get that he might have been molested. I believe the book part is a fantasy, he tries to spin it around. I have never experienced anyone describe their kid self in such a way (except for the main character in the book Empress Theresa, and that one is pure fiction. Also quite an experience so I recommend watching/listening to KrimsonRogue’s videos on it), and while concept of beauty is individual I gotta say from the pics we have seen from when he was a kids he was definitely not as angelic looking as he describes himself. And let’s not forget his awful self-image on top of it. The analysis I’m trying to pull out of my flat, uneducated ass is that I believe he wrote down a reality where he was this insanely cute kid that wasn’t molested. All that section is missing is in the end is an “IN OPPOSITE LAND, SIKE *finger guns*”
I fucking hate how fucking easily I get attached to someone, and how easily it leaves me in constant fear of getting hurt because of my abandonment issues. Fuck BPD, I just want to be a normal human having normal emotions handled in a normal way so I can have normal thoughts about my normal relationships with people around me instead of curling into a ball under a blanket the moment someone has a couple of off days because my brain convinces me they are going to get rid of me. Fuck. At least I’m not the kind to act out 95% of the times
He's rebranded pretty much every time he had a scandal so it would it his pattern. If he is going to continue posting videos is going to depend on if the demonetization is indeed infinite or if it ends up being temporary, there is no point if he can't make a living out of it. However if he's made enough money to retire, so he can just sit there in his dirty bath robe and piss in all the bottles he wants while reminiscing about the time he could laugh his way to the bank.
I get it in a sense, it is heartbreaking to learn what an awful person your idol actually is. This is a person you have dedicated a lot of time and support to, sometimes even money. It really sucks and it can even hurt to realize someone you looked up to is not who they presented themselves as (this is one of the dangers of the illusion of closeness to the social media gives) and even moreso when they were what helped you through harsh times. I am sure a lot of on the fence Shane fans are feeling like this right now and would rather just hold their hands over their ears and pretend they didn't hear or see anything, however this doesn't justify supporting a possible predator.
But it is better to just swallow the pill and move on by dropping your support, appreciate the good memories and feelings his works used to make you feel and find someone else to look up to. No one is perfect, but racism and predatory behavior isn't exactly something you should shrug at just because you like the person.